(he's relieved beyond words when klavier finally looks at him again, not the slightest bit of disappointment in him or anger or hurt. he was so terrified he'd hurt klavier, far more than he knew. but that smile... it's that smile that kills him. so hopeful, the tiniest bit of sadness behind it. apollo can see it clearly and it kills him inside.
and he's cursing his own damn pride for making him this way. it would be so easy, to just say yes, become a complete part of klavier's life every day, every minute. waking up together, making breakfast, spending more days off together and not scrambling to make time.
klavier's words are so inviting, so welcoming and tempting, and he'd love nothing more to give into them. he bites his lip, considering this, debating on whether he should share a home with klavier, live in what he can only describe as perfection, or return to the dingy office he's called a shitty home for the past couple weeks.
he looks down, defeated, almost pained, but gripping klavier's hand back tightly.) I... I just can't. Freeloading off my own boyfriend... that's just not right.
(but he desperately wishes it could be. for both of their sakes. what did he ever do to deserve klavier gavin?)
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and he's cursing his own damn pride for making him this way. it would be so easy, to just say yes, become a complete part of klavier's life every day, every minute. waking up together, making breakfast, spending more days off together and not scrambling to make time.
klavier's words are so inviting, so welcoming and tempting, and he'd love nothing more to give into them. he bites his lip, considering this, debating on whether he should share a home with klavier, live in what he can only describe as perfection, or return to the dingy office he's called a shitty home for the past couple weeks.
he looks down, defeated, almost pained, but gripping klavier's hand back tightly.) I... I just can't. Freeloading off my own boyfriend... that's just not right.
(but he desperately wishes it could be. for both of their sakes. what did he ever do to deserve klavier gavin?)