[Back then, Sakuma preferred it that way. The thorns around his heart kept anything that might hurt him at bay, and he could preserve what little was left of his cheerful, upbeat self. Lock it away and hold it dear, never to show it to anyone who could wither it further. Fudou originally had been one of those, a man who left the moment he could and without any real goodbye save for a text and a disconnected line. He'd hated admitting it's what made him grow as bitter as he was, Kidou's overseas trip and constant absences at Teikoku only adding punctures to his already wounded heart.
He longed to feel that same connection he had with Kidou and Fudou again. The idea of Koutei Penguin 3 seemed like the most fond of memories...
He valued their friendship, but he also wanted love. And in the end, Fudou had come back and given that to him. His heart melted, the thorns were pulled out, and now...now he was just putty in the man's arms, biting his lip to keep the smile from giving himself too much away.]
No...I think I've gotten all my errands done thanks to you.
[Which, in hindsight, was probably all planned by Fudou as well.
Another thing that drove him crazy about this man.]
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He longed to feel that same connection he had with Kidou and Fudou again. The idea of Koutei Penguin 3 seemed like the most fond of memories...
He valued their friendship, but he also wanted love. And in the end, Fudou had come back and given that to him. His heart melted, the thorns were pulled out, and now...now he was just putty in the man's arms, biting his lip to keep the smile from giving himself too much away.]
No...I think I've gotten all my errands done thanks to you.
[Which, in hindsight, was probably all planned by Fudou as well.
Another thing that drove him crazy about this man.]