(uncertainty is not something midorikawa deals with well, he tries to push past it with his own power, train himself to his limits and beyond until there is a certainty that things will work out for him somehow. he's always been able to control some part of a situation with his own two hands, with his own abilities and ideas.

that's not an option here. here and now, his only options are crumble under the pressure, or let hiroto pick up the pieces of him, keep midorikawa together. it wasn't that he was against people supporting him, midorikawa just wishes he was strong enough on his own to bounce back from this.

despite knowing full well, waiting on an answer from a confession isn't an easy thing to recover from, especially not how his was handed. being told he needed time, then sent away, all reasonable requests.

knowing that didn't ease the ache in his heart, however.

hiroto's inquiry tenses midorikawa, just the slightest, breathe hitching as he shrinks in on himself.) ... I'm scared. I just... I just want what you and Reina have, and Fumiko and Izuno, even Haruya and Fuu-- okay, maybe not them. But that love you all have for each other, that bond... I just want that with Kazemaru.